The Path I lead

Forgot I had this thing. It was supposed to be used for a clean slate.

I feel so lost. I mean I know what I want to do. But I still feel lost. I'm wasting my life. I haven't really lived it and I think that is part of the problem. Its hard too when you are the only one who feels that way. Especially when its not just yourself you have to think about. I can't wait to finish school. I still have a long ways to be completely done but hopefully by then I will have done some things that I want to do. Someday I WILL travel. I want to see the world. I want to be inspired by it. I'm so trapped. I've trapped myself. I want to pick up my bags and experience something new. My life is so boring. I'm tired of this room, tired of the people here. I need something new, something to push me, something to be excited about again. I miss that feeling. I'm so annoyed with everything, I'm not even interested in what he has to say. I feel bad. I can see it in his eyes, trying to figure me out. Wanting to help me, but not knowing how. I haven't been like this in awhile.
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