The Path I lead

Forgot I had this thing. It was supposed to be used for a clean slate.

I feel so lost. I mean I know what I want to do. But I still feel lost. I'm wasting my life. I haven't really lived it and I think that is part of the problem. Its hard too when you are the only one who feels that way. Especially when its not just yourself you have to think about. I can't wait to finish school. I still have a long ways to be completely done but hopefully by then I will have done some things that I want to do. Someday I WILL travel. I want to see the world. I want to be inspired by it. I'm so trapped. I've trapped myself. I want to pick up my bags and experience something new. My life is so boring. I'm tired of this room, tired of the people here. I need something new, something to push me, something to be excited about again. I miss that feeling. I'm so annoyed with everything, I'm not even interested in what he has to say. I feel bad. I can see it in his eyes, trying to figure me out. Wanting to help me, but not knowing how. I haven't been like this in awhile.
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1st time...

First time to blog spot...I love to blog but sometimes I just get so short of words and wish I could project my inner thoughts through my laptop. A lot of times I can say things and it may not come out right. I think I get that from my dad lol.
I'm freezing! I wish it would get this cold at night. Its so warm in the room at night for some reason. I guess since its so hot outside the ac kicks in more during the day. Oh the interesting life I lead! haha
I went to school to find out about my financial aid and change my degree and all that good stuff. Turns out they were missing a form...which turns out I already did it! Then A mistake I did on the FASFA..I thought I already fixed that crap. They are so unorganized! Or something! Then I got an income reduction form because I'm no longer working, and Grreeeaaaaat I have to get a letter from my former employer. UGh..I rather not do that. Immature people there. Guess I could just ask for accts payable. We'll see how that goes. I'm gonna try and do it w/o having to deal with those idiots. I don't need problems, especially when I'm not the one to blame for it. Well...to some part. I should've just said what was on my mind when I left rather than people putting words in my mouth later and so called friends believing it. No worries though. Learn through mistakes, and learned a lot about how friends can be. That'll have to be a whole 'nother blog for another time! heh..
Until then.....